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Beauty of The Dawn Shift

An Analysis of "The Beauty of The Dawn Shift" a short story from Rose Tremain

 “I think I'm drawn to writing about something which feels intense and important.”
- Rose Tremain –

Introduction

In this case of study, it is important that analyzing literary work from the social life that happen at a time of literary work is made. It can be seen on sociological aspect. It is because some literary works talk about events, conditions, or things that commonly happen in daily life.

Moreover, some literary works can be a reflection of some images or figures which really exist and live. Literary works can also draw some conditional event that may can make people realize of something that sometimes can be seen or felt.

Talking about social life and condition which is reflected in Beauty of the dawn shift, it would be wise to look at the social condition in Germany in 1989, as the story take place in Germany in around that time.

In this case, it is good to look back at the event that happened in Germany some years ago. The fall of Berlin Wall and the effect that is brought up with it to the Border Police in around that time.

It is just a reflection of social condition in Germany in 1989 toward certain people. Some other aspects can be reflected in this story, such as patriotism, communism, utopian, and dystopian can also be observed.

Analysis

The Border Police

After Germany has been divided into two, East Germany and West Germany, many people from East Germany tried to flee to West Germany. Because of it, the communist government of East Germany built a wall to separate the two countries. However, there were still a lot of people tried to escape from East Germany to West Germany. Therefore, East Germany commanded Border Police to guard near the wall, in this case, Border Police was ordered to prevent people to jump over the wall and to escape to the west. Actually, Border Police was ordered to shoot if it was necessary to stop fleeing. But, in fact, some Border Police used to shoot and kill people. Some Border Police or Border Guard who did shoot and stop someone from fleeing could get reward of up to 500 Marks. On the other hand, The Border Police might not shoot, but they would lose their well-paid job.

The Fall of Berlin Wall

The fall of Berlin Wall may become the most happening event in Germany in 1989 that affected a lot of people especially people in East Germany and West Germany. In November 1989, The Berlin Wall was torn down. It is marked of the end of communism in East Germany. Berlin wall was built in 1961 and torn down 1989. It remained for about 28 years. When the communism in East Germany failed, it seemed became the most appropriate reason to fall it down because the wall itself was built by communist government of East Germany.

The effect of the fall of Berlin Wall had been a huge news and vast number of people waited for it excitedly. However, in some other side, there were some people who might be not too excited to celebrate it, The Border Police.

In some cases, The Border Police had become the most accused figure after falling of Berlin Wall. Some Border Police were arrested and sentenced to death remembering their previous tasks. Some Border Police were accused because they considered as killers of killing and shooting people who wanted to escape from East Germany at that time. The judges often said that shooting over people were against human right, so they should have refused it.

The reflection towards Beauty of the dawn shift

The Beauty of the dawn shift written by Rose Tremain is a story about a young man named Hector S. He was a border police in East Germany. The story takes place in East Germany, a month after the Berlin wall was falling down. Hector S was a border police who wanted to go east, to Russia, after knowing the Berlin wall was torn down. He was willing to leave his love who is actually his sister, named Ute, his father, Erich, and Elvira, his mother who had passed away nine years before the falling of Berlin Wall. He looked for silence. He wished for peace and serenity in east. He wanted to do it, because he was sick of the people in East Germany.

…… and these object reminded Hector of the day when he’d been stopped by a group of Wessies, dress in pink and green shell suits, who had asked him the way to Alexanderplatz ‘What have you come to see?’ he’d asked them, more out of habit than out of interest, and they had laughed and swigged expensive beer and said ‘Oh, we’ve come to the East German closing-down sale! Many bargains. Everything must go’ And it had been at this moment and not any other than Hector S had decided to leave his country and leave Ute and cycle to Russia. He said to himself, I’m not going because I’m afraid. I’m going because these people make me feel sick

From the line shown above, it can be vaguely seen that Hector S really wanted to leave because of the people. He even had a plan to cycle to Russia in a such cold weather in December. It might become the reflection of border police at that time when the border police was no longer needed after the fall of Berlin wall. Hector S might feel betrayed and tricked after the Berlin wall was torn down. His loyal job could not exist and he was jobless and people began to neglect and mock at him.

Hector S decided to go to Russia, but before that he went to Elvira’s cemetery. There, he met a young boy who tried to steal bulb. Hector was trying to make a young leave the grave yard and not steal bulb by mentioning that he was a Border Police and showed his rifle. However, the boy seemed not afraid and started to mock at him.

‘Who are you?’ he said

‘Border Police,’ announced Hector.

‘Border Police?’

‘Yes.’

The youth boy stood up straight and laughed. ‘Border Police! The border is down, or didn’t anyone tell you? You mean the didn’t tell you?’

At this point, Hector S as a border police was even more ignored, he was like no one who ever exist in a such certain condition, where a border was really matter. Just because the border was torn away, he was likely a person who was no longer needed. The same way as border police fate at that time, they became the most accused figure after the fall of Berlin wall, in the case of shooting to kill people who wanted to escape from East German to West German.

It could become the most reasonable thing of Hector’s decision went to east. Once, Erich, his father said

‘All right’ said Erich, ‘but remember, when you walk away from one place, you are inevitably walking towards another’

‘I know that,’ said Hector ‘That’s why I’m going east’

From this statement, it might be seen that Hector S really wanted to go to east because he thought he might find something in east. He seemed so tired about west and western. When the people were looking for west, he was alone looking for east. When Berlin wall still existed a lot of people tried to jump over it from east to west, some lucky were successfully escaped to west, some of them were arrested and sent to jail, and many of them were killed. As a border police, Hector S might be sick of escaping to the west or fleeing to west or looking for west. So he decided to go to east and looked for silence.

Moreover, this story wants to say about patriotism inside Hector S. In the tiredness of his people, he still had a hope of having people out there in Russia who would want to talk with him, not to be ignored by public. Hector S was apparently a communist and a patriot. He even travelled from East Germany to Russia wearing his uniform proudly.

He’d been a communist and a patriot. He wanted to stand up in this cheap Marzahn café and say : ‘My name is Hector S and, to me, the word “patriot” is not a dirty one.’

Here, Hector S character wanted to show that for some Border Police, it was alright to have communism and patriotism in his life, although, it was all over as if the wall had fallen down. It was alright for some border police to idealize west ideology, but still bring with him his communism and patriotism life. It was a pride.

In his journey to Russia, Hector S found some difficulties, he was so tired of his heavy knapsack which hurt his back, he felt ill of cold, and something else he couldn’t name. He was about forty kilometers inside Poland when he fell ill. Fortunately, a man saved him. He was a freight train driver between Poznan and Warsaw. His wife, Katarzyna didn’t like when her husband helped a uniformed man who fainted on the road. Even, Katarzyna didn’t treat him well, she considered to have a lemon as the first and the last gift from German soldier.

‘This is the first gift I’ve ever had from a German. And the last.’

Things might be different before the fall of Berlin Wall. Katarzyna might treat him better because German soldier had some power at that time. However, in contrast, after the fall of Berlin Wall, German soldier had no more power to at least frighten some people inside or outside German. Even, a man in a uniformed.

Hector S continued his journey. The train driver drove him a truck, with his knapsack and bicycle along with him. They travelled from Poznan to Warsaw. After getting to Warsaw, he asked another driver to put him in another freight going East. Inside the freight car, he was thinking about Poland and imagining a letter to Ute. Describing how beautiful Russia was and told Ute to immediately come to Russia by the next train from Berlin. Although, he didn’t know yet how Russia was. He even didn’t get there yet. It reflected how utopian world affected Hector S. He was wondering of Russia. He was seeking silence in east. He was hoping for something beautiful in Russia.

Unfortunately, in his cold journey, he was found dead by the second train driver the next morning. He was getting in Russia, but He didn’t find any beauty of it.

Hector was lying face up, one arm behind his head that rested on his knapsack. His face had the pallor of bone, but there was a smile on it, as if, in his last moments. Hector had glimpsed something of great beauty.

However, at the last of the story, a utopian world of Hector S was merely ended, he was successfully reached Russia, but he would never see the beauty of it. It marked the dystopian world. Dystopian is world which is contrast to utopian. Looking for silence, peace, serenity, freedom, and beauty were only a utopian world which existed in his mind. In fact, to reach all of these, nothing seemed easy or even beautiful. And the end, dystopian seemed more stronger than utopian.

Conclusion  

1.      The author wanted to say that life of Border Police seemed neglected and ignored after the fall of Berlin Wall. Border Police was jobless and mocked by people around.

2.      For some people, especially Border Police patriotism and communism still maintained inside him, proudly said that he supported communism and also a patriot, although he might not be able to avoid west ideology that successfully torn down communism, and communism failed to East Germany, marked by the fall of Berlin Wall. When everyone else went to west, the main character chose to go east and met his end of life. It reflected the failing and falling of East.

3.      Utopian world, when the main character imagined in looking for silence. It might be concluded as freedom and beauty. The way he described about Russia was so much beautiful, seemed like he had really feel it. It was only in his imagination. It showed how some certain people dreamed about going east and had new beautiful life in such place at that time.

4.      Dystopian world, when the main character found difficulties and finally he died. It reflected that how such a dream of such beautiful places and thought at that time couldn’t be true at that time. Many dreamed of east could give a new role model, but in fact in was fall and died. And dystopian world seemed can described how terrible world after The Fall of Berlin Wall for certain people at that time.

Bibliography

http://simple.wikipedia.org/wiki/Berlin_Wall

http://berlin-wall-history.blogspot.com/2009/11/berlin-wall-wall-live-in-berlin-1990.html

http://wapedia.mobi/en/Border_guards_of_the_inner_German_border

The Story of Luna and Television

The first time Luna watched television :

"What is that thing???", she thought deeply

And she became more and more curious~~~

"Why are people inside this thing??? How can they get there???"

And she totally get sucked into television !!

"I wanna be in that thing !! How can I get there? I have to climb up and reach that thing !!"

semi-hiatus

i will be semi hiatus because i have a lot of things to do~~~ my studies kill my time... i need to arrange a lot of things back. SIGH~~~!

i just dunno why this semester seems so much hard for me...
i feel so frightened yet excited... well, i just dunno why all feelings fill my heart in this semester...may be because this is my last year in college...

i still need to update my blog because i feel so alive here...

but. may be i will not as intense as before...

i will just spend my time in blogging as long as i could...

well, after all semi hiatus means i do exist but i'm not always around. :)))

-ultrautogia-

Life is not that easy (question mark)

Life is not that easy. Why do i say so? I talk about CHOICES. Life is about lots of CHOICES. we can do nothing except CHOOSE or DECIDE. Well, that's quite hard for me. I never like choices, i never like choosing, i never like deciding...

Well... i wish i could skip that kind of thing !

However... the more i try to runaway the more choices come to me... 

I feel like it is useless to escape.. I have to face it. 

Like a coward. yes, maybe i'm a coward. Or, anyone can say that to me... 

I learn lots of things in this life.... sacrifice... yes, when i make a choice.... i have to sacrifice something else (that maybe important or less important but i like it or want it... but really need it... complicated, huh?)

I HAVE SACRIFICED LOTS OF THINGS TO DECIDE OR CHOOSE SOMETHING OVER OTHERS... !! that, somehow, makes me sad.... 

But... I never find that my choice disappoint me... I have just to keep moving forward... 

It will never end... make choice, decide, choose... i will have to do it, maybe, all the way i live...
something that I dislike the most but I have to do it the most... 

Somehow... i find it challenging... i want to love make choice, decide, or choose... I have to love it... 

Yah, life is not that easy.... It's not that easy to decide loving my-most-hateful-thing like making choice... 

Yah, life is not that easy... It's not that easy to choose sacrifying my-loving-thing over others just for good sake... 

well, I have to stop here. I gotta make choices again. Ppyong~~!

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IT'S HELLO PANDA !!! 

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WHEN I AM DEAD, MY DEAREST

An Analysis of Christina Rosetti's poetry titled "When I Am Dead, My Dearest"

When I am dead, my dearest is a poetry which shows that death is actually a happy ending and a start of eternal life.

The first stanza of the poetry tells that death should not be something sad.

When I am dead, my dearest,

Sing no sad songs for me

From that verse, it shows that death is actually not a sad state. It is better to face it with singing no sad song. Singing no sad song means mourning or regretting. There is no way back in death. Death can not be replayed or flashbacked. So, there is no use regretting or mourning it. This poetry wants to tell that people should realize that in facing death people should be wise. Death is sometimes can be the only best end. Sometimes death is not always seen as something sad, but something good. It is also believed that death is not actually an end. There is life after death, the eternal life. So there is no need to sing a sad song to the death because they already live in another world.

The second stanza of the poetry tells that death is the ending of secular immortal life and the beginning of eternal life.

I shall not see the shadows,

I shall not feel the rain;

I shall not hear the nightingale

From those verses, it shows that death brings something called numb. When someone dies, he can not feel, see, hear, touch, taste, and do everything. He just stays still. People may think that this state is horrible and frightening or sad and sorrowful. But, for the death this state is not that bad because they can no more feel pain. It shows that death is the climax. Death is the end of facing immortal life and world. Death makes realize that actually human being is just dust that can not do anything. So, death should be something to contemplate.

Haply I may remember,

And haply may forget.

That verse shows that there is life after death. When someone dies, he can no more do anything, even remembers or forgets. However, that verse mentions remember and forget. Human can remember and forget when they are alive. So, it means, there is a life after death. Life after death is something mysterious. We, as human being, may never know what will actually happen in life after death. We may remember about our life in the world, or may forget.

To sum up, this poetry talks about death. Death should not be something sad. For some reason, death brings both ending and beginning of life. Death also gives no more pain. Death seems makes people can not do anything, but there is life after death that makes the death becomes alive and do something in eternal life. Whether it’s remembering or forgetting. 

-ULTRAUTOGIA-

is it really the end?

i watched the last part of Harry Potter yesterday~
i cried almost half of the movie... the saddest Harry Potter movie ever~~~
Remembering how i grew up along with Harry Potter.... more than ten years... and it is just over right away~~~

I cried because the story was epic and also the movie was so great... moreover i cried because there are no more Harry Potter movie anymore...

I still remember how I always struggle along with my friends to get the tickets~~ I also remember when I was in junior high, I was so happy to get free ticket to watch Harry Potter~~

Harry Potter didn't only leave some impressive moment and memories from the novels, stories, and movies... but also... more than that... some irreplaceable friendship, struggling, tears, laugh, anger, love, and more and more and more childhood memories.

I will never forget all the novels and movies series of Harry Potter. I grew up with those. I lived my childhood with those. And I will never regret it.

Special Gift

I believe that everyone is given a special person as a gift in his or her life.

I felt so alone. I felt so lonely. No reasons. No answers. Even when I was in a crowd or in noisy places, I often felt it. But, that day was a turning point for me. Just like other days, it was a hot and tiring day when I first met him.

Later, I realized that he was a gift for me. He was a senior in high school. He was an ordinary boy. There was nothing special about him. However, he looked so shiny and sparkling in my heart. Whenever and wherever I felt so lonely he was always there for me. His words embraced me tightly. His jokes kept my spirit on fire. His smiles pulled me up. He taught me about being alone and loneliness.

“No matter how hard it is, no matter how alone you are or how lonely you are, you have to enjoy your life. Don’t take it too seriously. Find a lot of things that remind you about happiness and togetherness. Remember, you have friends and families around you.” He added “Keep smiling. Keep laughing.”

His words kept running in my mind. I never forget about it. Since he was with me, I never felt alone and lonely anymore. I was in love with him. It felt like a warm Sunday morning that woke me up with smiley face. It felt like colorful flowers bloomed and spread lovely fragrant around me. So nice. So beautiful. So sweet.

But, that gloomy cloudy cold night, I got some serious problems with him. We fight. We got angry. We messed our relationship up. He left me. I couldn’t believe he went away without thinking about my feelings for him. I felt so dejected, downhearted, and forlorn.

“Is it fake? Your love and care are fake? Is it fake?!!” I wailed.

Then, loneliness filled my heart again. I couldn’t shout for help from him anymore.

“He went away… you have to struggle by yourself now…,” I said to myself.

However, his words about being alone and lonely reminded me.

“I must be with my friends and family, I have them,” I thought.

I had to stand so tall without him. I believed I could through it all.

A Few months later, I could overcome my loneliness. I realized that my family and friends were always there with me to help me through all of it. I thanked him because he reminded me about it. Although he had left me, I never hated him. I wish he never forgot about me because I will never forget about him. He was my special gift. And this I believe.

SOMETHING CHILDISH BUT VERY NATURAL WRITTEN IN GERMANY

AN ANALYSIS OF POETRY TITLED SOMETHING CHILDISH BUT VERY NATURAL WRITTEN IN GERMANY BY SAMUEL TAYLOR COLERIDGE

Something Childish, but very Natural Written in Germany is a poetry about someone who misses his childhood.

In the first stanza,

If I had but two little wings

And were a little feathery bird,

To you I’d fly, my dear.

It implies that he remembers about his fun and happy childhood when he freely imagined about a lot of things.

The second stanza,

But my sleep to you I fly

I’m always with you in my sleep!

The world is all one’s own.

Bu then one wakes, and where am I?

All, all alone.

The first, second, and third line imply that when he was a child he could rely on somebody around him. Whether it was his mom, dad, brother, sister, anyone. Everyone took care of and helped him. No one left him alone.

The fourth and fifth line imply that he realize about reality in life. As he grows up, everybody can leave him alone. He knows that life is not as easy as he thought. He has to struggle alone to live. No one can help him now.

The third stanza,

Sleep stays not, though a monarch bids;

So I love to wake ere break of day;

For though my sleep be gone,

Yet while ‘tis dark shuts one’s lids,

And still dreams on.

It implies that he hopes that he can be a child. He wants to turn back time. He wishes that what he is struggling right now is only a dream. He wishes that if his childhood is only a dream, he doesn’t want to wake up, he wants to keep dreaming.

So, this poetry is about someone who misses his childhood. He remembers about his fun and happy childhood when he could imagine everything that he wanted to. When he was a child, he could rely on everybody around him. His mom, dad, brothers, sisters, anyone. He could ask for help from everybody. Everyone took care of and loved him. But, as soon as he grew up, he knows that he couldn’t forever rely on others. He has to face reality. He has to face real life. He has to struggle. He has to do efforts. Gradually, he realizes that everyone is not always helping and taking care. They leave him alone and he has to stand on by himself. Then, he feels so tired of life, he wishes that it was only a dream. He wants to return to his childhood when everything seems so simple, easy, fun and happy. And he wishes that if his childhood is only a dream, he doesn’t want to wake up. He wants to keep dreaming.

Conclusion

Sometimes, we may feel the same way. We feel tired of life and reality and want to go back to our childhood. However, the reality is not like that.  We have to face our reality. Our childhood remains memories. It is better to keep our childhood our childhood as the sweetest memory and make it precious to help us stronger in fighting and struggling.

-ultrautogia-

kalo pengen punya pacar, jangan deket deket aku ! (part 1)

pernahkah ada yang merasa bahwa saat kamu berdekatan, berteman, atau bersahabat dengan seseorang kamu jadi ga bisa punya pacar?

aku tidak pernah. Tapi, aku hanya ingin membuat orang orang sadar, bahwa di dunia ini ada hal yang seperti ini.

Sejak aku smp aku selalu punya beberapa temen deket... orang orang menyebutnya temen se-genk.

Temen segenkku waktu smp yang paling deket itu namanya sara, endah, dan vina. Selama mereka berteman dekat denganku, aku tidak pernah melihat atau mendengar cerita mereka berpacaran dengan cowok manapun. padahal, kalo dilihat dari segi wajah, tinggi badan, bentuk badan, dan berat badan mereka sangat menarik. Sifat dan kelakuan mereka juga sangat baik. Memang sih, ada beberapa cowok mendekati mereka, tapi tidak ada satupun yang pernah berpacaran sama mereka.

Setelah lulus dan berpisah bersekolah di tempat yang berbeda beda kami jarang dan bahkan tidak pernah ketemu.

Akhirnya suatu hari kami bisa berkumpul lagi... saat itu aku tau kalo temen-temenku sudah punya pacar atau paling tidak punya gebetan.


Begitupun, saat di sma aku juga punya genk. Waktu kelas X aku punya genk yang bernama "OIO" yang terdiri dari 3 cewek, yaitu moya, dita, dan aku. Waktu itu kita sama sama ga punya pacar dan ga punya gebetan. Sampai naik kelas XI kami masih deket walaupun dita beda kelas (aku dan moya masih sekelas terus sampe kelas XII)
Waktu di kelas XI-XII aku juga punya genk baru yang bernama BOBISURANTO (akronim dari keBO baBI aSU jaRAN unTO) *nama yang aneh*
bobisuranto terdiri dari 5 cewek yaitu yessy, okta, moya, sisil, dan aku.
Waktu itu kami tidak punya pacar, hmm.... beberapa dari kami sebenernya ada yang punya gebetan atau pacar, misalnya yessy, okta, dan sisil tapi hubungannya juga ga jelas sih..... Waktu itu aku memang paling deket sama moya dan rasanya senang karena dia sama sama ga punya pacar kayak aku... :DDDD

Sampai suatu saat, aku jadi lumayan deket sama yessy dan agak jauh sama moya.... beberapa saat kemudian moya punya pacar dan aku jadi semakin jauh sama moya.... dan yessy yang deket sama aku malah jadi ga punya gebetan atau pacar.

Selain mereka berempat, aku juga punya temen deket lain di kelas namanya leyna. Dia juga sama... ga punya pacar atau gebetan...

Setelah lulus sma kami jadi terpisah, sibuk dengan dunia masing masing, dan ga deket lagi, tapi kami punya waktu waktu khusus untuk ngumpul ngumpul dan maen.

Suatu hari waktu bobisuranto plus dita reuni, mereka bercerita kalo mereka masing sudah punya pacar. Sisil akhirnya ketemu cowok yang pas buat dia setelah berkali kali ganti -_- (padahal dulu temen sebangkuku ini suka galau soal cowok), okta yang dulu sempet salah pilih cowok (hahaha, tapi konyol ini !!) akhirnya ketemu *orang bilang* soulmate-nya, yessy yang dulu desperate sama gebetan dan mantannya ini akhirnya dapet cowok yang punya masa depan religius (halleluya ! hehehe), moya yang akhirnya jadian sama temen kecilnya atau tetangganya ini pacarannya malah kaya miiko sama tappei (lucu !!), dan dita yang dulunya nangis nangis curhat soal cowok ke aku ini akhirnya dapet pacar temenku sekelasku (hahahaha~~~)

wah, wah, wah, banyak yang berubah sejak kita berpisah, ga pernah ketemu, dan deket lagi.

Dan... si leyna yang sekarang sangat aktif di jogja akhirnya dapet gebetan temen sepelayanannya di gereja jogja. well, kalo soal leyna ini dia cerita sih lewat twitter... soalnya sekarang kamu ga pernah ketemu... dia di jogja mulu sih...

Nha, sekarang temen deket kuliah.... aku ga tau apa yang sedang dan akan terjadi sih...

Yang jelas... aku mulai curiga....

jangan jangan temen temen yang deket sama aku bisa bisa ga punya pacar???

apa aku membawa semacam "sesuatu" yang membuat orang orang deketku ga punya pacar???

well, it remains mystery~~~ i just don't know the answers yet...

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Marriage a-la-Mode

An Analysis of Poetry titled

Marriage A-la-Mode by John Dryden 

Marriage a-la-Mode tells about someone who doesn’t believe in marriage life and against it.

There is correlation between first stanza and second stanza.

In the first stanza of this poetry, it shows how the writer portrays that marriage is fool and useless. The writer tells that marriage is just an obligation that created by people to tie two persons in love. The writer sees that actually marriage is only the way to end love. Everybody can love, may love, and will love, but they do not need to marry. He thinks that marriage can make the passion of love disappears. He wants to say that love is a free one that can not be bound in a tie which is expressed by oath. Marriage is only a way to build a border around love itself. Marriage binds love. Marriage cage love up. Marriage does not give space for love. Gradually, love can be so decayed and it dies away inside the marriage. There is no real pleasure and love in marriage. This first stanza says that marriage is just so depressing and not so worthy.

In the second stanza, it shows the writer’s thought about marriage. It shows that marriage should not be an obligatory, but a choice. It depends on person himself whether he wants to get married or not. It shows that marriage is not the only way to get joyfulness. People can find their joy even without commit marriage. Without marriage people can love each other freely. No boundaries. No limits. No borders. They can not tie each other. It clearly shows that this stanza wants to say that the prime thing in love is freedom. Not bound. Sometimes, without marriage people can feel so happy and free in loving each other because they can not make some rules or prevention that make themselves feel so caged up and trapped.

This poetry wants to show that people should not make marriage as an obligation. Marriage is a choice. People may take it or not. Many people can find their happiness, joyfulness, and freedom of love without marrying each other, without binding each other in a sacred oath, without committing marrying. Marriage should not be a rule of something or for someone because not all people believe in marriage and not all believe that marriage can prove anything that mainly related to love.

-ULTRAUTOGIA- 

Iambicum Trimetrum ---Sick of Living in Unreal Happy World---

An Analysis of Poetry titled  

Iambicum Trimetrum by Edmund Spencer 

Iambicum Trimetrum talks about tiredness of living in unreal happy world.

First stanza :

Unhappy state

• It means the unhappiness that he feels

the witness of my unhappy state

• It means that the people can see his unhappiness

Second stanza :

Lying restless in heavy bed

• It means that even he tries to rest or sleep he still feel so heavy or unhappy

Sitting so cheerless at the cheerful board

• It means that he even feels unhappy in a place that should make him happy

Third stanza :

My eyes can take no rest. My mouth can eat no meat. I can hear no mirth.

• It portrays that there is reason behind his unhappiness that makes him can’t live well and comfortably

Fourth stanza :

Asked why?

• This tag question implies his tiredness of his unhappiness. It shows that he wants to say about his reason and burden inside.

Fifth stanza :

Her pleasures were wont to lull me asleep. Her beauty wont to feed mine eyes. Her sweet tongue was wont to make mirth.

• It means that he wants to say that all pleasure, beauty, and all sweet good beautiful things in this world is just temporary. It won’t give him eternal happiness. And he feels so tired with secular offering that seems depressing for him.

Sixth stanza :

I nightly waste, wanting my kindly rest. I daily starve, wanting my lively food. I always die, wanting timely mirth.

• It means that he is tired of looking for real happiness where he can live well and comfortably.

Seven stanza :

And if I die, who will say : “This was Immerito”?

• Immerito means unjustifiably, undeservingly, without merit. So it means, that no one will recognize about his feeling, thought, and desire about real happiness in this immortal world. He even doesn’t deserve to get attention even if he dies away.

So, overall, in this poetry the writer wants to show his feeling about his unhappiness, he doesn’t care whether people already knew it or not because he feels so depressed of his life. He can’t even sleep well or live well. He is tired of his life. Gradually, he found out that there are some reasons of it. He found out that all the things under the sky, under the sun are immortal. There are a lot of things offered to him, secular things, but nothing can make him happy, in reality. He is just fed up with a lot of things around him. All things seem depress him. At one point, he feels so much tired of searching real happiness and he found out that his effort is all just useless. No one will care and understand. Even people will not say that he deserves to get real happiness with all his efforts.

Sometimes, as human being, people may feel the same way about real happiness. They try to look for real happiness in the life. But, they end up of finding nothing. Because everything in this world is immortal and so is happiness.

- ULTRAUTOGIA - 

I LOVE YOU, TIKA~~~!

I remembered that I promised myself to invite some friends to karaoke on my 21st birthday. But, i didn't do it. well, almost... so, I decided.... a week later to invite some friends to karaoke... YAY ! YAY !! YAY !!! i love karaoke with my friends~~~

Unfortunately... no one could come and join it... huks huks....

i was just tooooooooo upset !! hish !!

so, i decided to go to mall with my bestest friend *with a lil bit force actually, she even said that i kidnapped her -_-*

anyway.... i became a lil bit calm and okay...but, i still wanted to go to karaoke...

so i insisted to go to karaoke even it was just with her....

well, she's just too kind to me and said "okay, as u will."

KYAAAA~~~!! i was so happy~~~

SO WE SANG AND TOOK SOME PICTURES....

HERE THEY ARE~~~

I'm in yellow, she's in blue~~~!!! we're singing so happily. :DDD

we're friends since we were 2yrs old baby~~~ kekekekeke... how long is that up until now???

our friendship will last forever~~~ PEACE OUT~~~!

I WAS JUST SO HAPPY~~~ THANK U MY BESTEST FRIEND EVER~~~ let's do karaoke again next time.... hahahaha

I LOVE YOU TIKA~~~!!! <33333