Something changing

I stared at my reflection in the mirror.

The same.

I stared at his reflection in the mirror.

The same.

I took a deep breath. There’s fog in the air. Cold. I felt so cold.

It’s freeze.

He held my hand. There’s something soft on my skin. But, it’s cold. I still felt so cold.

It’s freeze.

I embraced him. He took me into his chest. I heard constant heartbeats.

But still, I felt cold.

We are still the same. We are not changing.

Somehow, deep down there, something changing between us.

“So, we have to end it all here?”, I whispered to him.

“Hm. I’m sorry. I will marry her tomorrow, you know, my family want me to marry her for the sake of…”

“I knew it”, I cut his words “I knew it all… And I can feel it too… you don’t love me anymore, right?”

He hesitated. He released me from his chest.

I stared him. Same face. Same expression. Same gestures. Same voice. Same person.

Different heart. Different heartbeats.

“I’m sorry… I can never lie to you…”

“It’s okay. Just marry her.”

He hugged me again and left me few minutes later.

He’s still the same person that I knew. I’m still the same person that he knew.

But, something changing in us. Our hearts have changed. He has no heart for me. I have no heart for him. He has no love left for me. I have no love left for him.
Somehow, he left me something that I keep in secret.
A baby inside me.
Something changing in me.  

It’s more precious than our love or him or even my life. I will keep the baby for myself.

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