Monday, June 17, 2013

Look ! I'm laughing again !

Hello... Hello...

Long time no see... I've been so busy doing something unnecessary... Oh yes, I'm in a big trouble in terms of priority scale... sigh... long sigh... long long sigh...

Some of my friends have already departed from university or I might say they already graduated or will graduate soon... They leave me behind... Oh no, it is actually not like that... I let them leave before me... Yes, I don't do any strong efforts, I don't struggle harder than them, No, I don't and I don't know why...

But, it doesn't mean that I have no worries with something like that... I have big worries, it troubles me all the time... It pressed me down day by day...

It's like.....

I want to give up

I want to give in

But, I am not allowed to do that...

I force myself to smile or laugh, to hide my true feelings, to conceal my true feelings...

I am running away... Escaping myself from one place to others...

I'm like a fool...

Yet, I know, I will never always run away... I will never always escape...

I am too afraid in facing reality...

Such a coward...

I laugh a lot these days... I bet this is the form of my stress and pressed feelings...

I don't know... It's like I laugh at my self, I laugh at my life...

I don't know where it will end or when it will end...

This is all I want to share...

Not really necessary, huh?

HAHAHAHAHAHA ~ ! Look ! I'm laughing again !!




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