Shalom...
Ini adalah postingan pertama di tahun 2014 sekaligus postingan pertama tentang kesaksian. v^_^v
Oke, pertama-tama, aku cuma mau mengingatkan bahwa tahun 2013 kemarin adalah Tahun Anugerah. Di gerejaku meyakini bahwa tahun 2013 adalah Tahun Anugerah.
Jujur, aku sebenernya agak pesimis dengan tahun 2013 dan aku nggak tahu dimana letak anugerah itu.
Tapi, yang namanya anugerah itu memang kadang-kadang datangnya nggak terduga-duga bahkan tanpa disadari juga.
Selama tahun 2013, aku memang hampir tidak mengalami anugerah di bidang studi (hampir tidak itu bukan berarti tidak sama sekali loh ya...)
Di tahun itu, aku cukup putus asa sama studiku, skripsiku buntu dan macet. Sampai-sampai aku ngambek dan off dari urusan per-skripsi-an selama berbulan-bulan-bulan-bulan lamanya...
Lalu, pada akhirnya, di satu momen aku tersadar bahwa aku nggak bisa begini terus. Nggak tahu gimana caranya, aku harus dapet topik, ga peduli apapun dan gimana pun caranya. Setelah browsing sana-sini, pontang-panting dari satu toko buku ke toko buku lainnya, aku dapet juga topik yang mau aku bahas. Oke, ternyata masalah belum selesai... buku versi inggris yang aku butuhkan memang bisa di download sih, tapi buku yang versi bahasa indonesia itu ternyata terbitan lawas... dan itu susah banget nyarinya. Tapi, bukan Tuhan Yesus namanya kalo nggak ngasih solusi di waktu-waktu yang nggak terduga dan melalui orang-orang yang nggak terduga. Singkat cerita, akhirnya, aku bisa dapet buku itu melalui online order. (Thank You, Jesus.)
Ya, memang cuma segitu sih cerita tentang studiku... memang nggak terlalu banyak mujizat untuk studi yang aku alami sepanjang tahun 2013, tapi aku bersyukur karena jalanku dalam mencari topik dipermudah... sebenernya kalo aku mau mencoba semuanya bisa terjadi. Hanya saja, waktu itu aku terlalu lama menunda-nunda tugasku mencari topik, terlalu lama move on, terlalu lama kecewa dan sakit hati...
Pertolongan Tuhan itu memang luar biasa, saat aku mau bangkit lagi dan bergantung kepadaNya, Dia akan menyediakan jalan bagiku.
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Shalom...
This is my first post ever in 2014 and... my first post ever about testimony... (it's all about the first, isn't it?)
Okay, first thing first... I just want to remind you that 2013 was namely The Year of Grace. Especially, in my church, we believe that 2013 was The Year of Grace.
Honestly, I was a bit desperate in 2013 and I wondered where the grace was.
But, you can never doubt grace because sometimes grace comes in silence and in unexpected way.
In 2013, I almost never experienced grace in my study (but that doesn't mean that I didn't experience it)
Instead of felt the grace, I was rather desperate with my study, my thesis was so stuck. I was fed up with it and decided to take a break for months... months... months...
Then, at a certain point, I snapped myself that I couldn't be like this forever. I took my efforts, no matter how and what happened I had to get topic to discuss for my thesis. After browsing and wandering around from one bookstore to another... I found my topic to talk about. Okay, it's not over yet... the book itself was the problem... The English version of the book can be downloaded freely but the Indonesian version was really hard to get...
But, that's how Jesus worked... He works in times that I don't know through the people that I don't know... Shortly, I could get the book via online order (Thank You, Jesus.)
Well, that's all I got for my study testimonial in 2013, not much, but worth enough (for me, at least). Somehow, I feel that Jesus easen my way to find topic.That's just me who was too long to feel dejected and disappointed. I just need to wake up and get up to keep on trying and He will do his way.
*special thanks to JESUS CHRIST for His infinite grace to me, elysa faith ng (the daughter of clara ng) who gave me inspiration for taking the topic after reading her post on her blog about Just So Stories by Rudyard Kipling, and mas nikotopia who (out of nowhere) gave me a link of a wonderful online bookstore website*
-ultrautogia-
